Hi :)
I'm back on Blogger! Yayy :)
Just wanna do updates on a few things
1. I just done with my form six, got CGPA 3.75, and now waiting for the posting of local university, or maybe going for private one. Now I'm working as a temporary teacher in Hin Hua primary until August 19, because I wanna try it out for my mother and ex bf. I found out I wasn't passionate about being a teacher. I lost patience sometimes very easily because I couldn't understand why somethings is easy to understand but I dun get why they couldnt. HAHA It's me. And kids nowadays, their attitude really sucks, because they were too pampered by their parents. In the future, I would be a lecturer instead of primary or secondary teacher.
2. I broke up with my first love :) We have been together for 8 months. In the 8 months there was happy stuff, and sad stuff. I have learnt a lot of stuff. We were apart after we graduated from STPM, I made the effort for us to meet up to keep affections and updates maybe a few times a month but unfortunately he couldn't commit to it. It just doesn't work out the way we wanted. Gradually, he lost affections of me and would gave up on our relationship. We were on and off. I was in loved him very much when we were still couple, but I had to give up on him. I can't love him anymore when he didn't feel the same way as I do. Love makes someone go irrational. I'll let him go, he will be as free as a bird flying in the sky! I can't be his 绊脚石 anyway :D I'll free myself too, stop being so frustrated and lost concentration on things I do. I could do whatever thing I like. Let time fade us, if we are not meant to be together. Let time make us, if we are meant to be. I'm still in love with him, but now all I left was just friends love :) So thank you, and I love you.
3. My grandmother passed away this year. My grandmother passed away due to old and infections, on 28 of February. I remember that day I received the call from the hospital through mum's phone ( cause mum didn't bring her phone out, I was at home) after that I start calling everybody to rush to hospital to sent granny off but unfortunately nobody made it. I accepted her death and was ready for that long ago, she was suffering because I know a strong lady wouldn't want anybody to clean her shit, take care of her, she felt so pain inside her heart and gave up. I didnt cry, I know deep inside she would be in my heart and memories, forever. Thank you granny for taking care of me and my brother, when my mum had to work. I remember her dishes was rather awful ( I was pretty choosy on food ) but I remembered I did thanked her for her effort every time she cook for me. She used to take opportunities and cook whenever I'm at home, although she barely could walk. She fell down 3 times and broke her two legs one at each time. She was a strong lady, but very stubborn. I love you my dear grandmother. Miss you always. Miss you, I will send you prayers everyday when I do my Gongyo and Daimoku. Dear grandma, don't worry, I will graduate from my degree, get a high pay job, take over debts and any other expenses of family, take care of my parents, and be married to a good husband that I could share with him all your cool stories :)
4. Sadly, my aunty passed away this year too. She was my grandmother's second daughter, the third among siblings. She passed away on 26 of July, due to pancreatic cancer. She was suffering since my grandmother passed away. I saw her tummy bloated, then she cried for pain, after that her skin turned yellow due to kidney failure, and then she became so thin look very much alike to my grandmother at that time, then she couldn't even breathe, grasping for air every last second of her life, and at her last breathe, she grasped for the last time very hard, very loud, and she was gone. I remembered the way she laughed, she laughed so loud even the neighbours told me she was noisy. I laughed every time after she scold vulgar words every time she talked to my parents. She was so good on buying TOTO MAGNUM 4D and whatever sorts number, even our family gave her name " EMPAT EKOR". She cooked for me everytime I went to visit her. I remember when my grandma was sick, she cycled to our house from hers ( approximately half an hour distance ) just to clean up my house, mop my house floor, cook for my grandma, took care of my grandma, and even fold our clothing when all four of us weren't at home. I felt very grateful, she was there for my grandma when all four of us didn't. I felt very grateful, she cooked yummy 福建面 and more dishes for us and now all left was just memories. She was a better cook than my grandmother. She invited us for free dinner at nice restaurant when her 寿龟庙 held events. She laughed and made us laughed too. Dear aunt, I will always remember you. Love you alot, your laughters will be inside my heart, forever :)
5. I'm so determined to study Actuarial Science because of the good pay, high demand, good reputations of the job. It may be very stressful and very difficult to be an actuary but I believe I will put hard work to achieve my dreams and the future I want to have. Initially I applied for Chemical Engineering at a few local Universities, but I have changed my mind. I applied for UM for actuarial science course but too bad I didn't get any interview so I knew I wasn't shortlisted. Now, I hope I could get into UKM, but too bad I have overlooked it when I was applying for schools. If I do appellations it would take 3 weeks for me to get into the course and school I wanted, it was so risky because the government may not even consider my appellations. I have an alternative decision - Sunway intake in August, 3 years MYR 65000 but I have to repay PTPTN once I'm done with my degree, OR UTAR intake in October, 3 years MYR 36000. I don't mind the burden, but my parents and a lot of leaders really encouraged me to get a place in local University. Hopefully miracle could happen. Hopefully my prayers to Gohonzon will be answered.
6. I started chanting very seriously recently. Aimed on my target and fire. Have strong faith on Gohonzon. I started reading Sensei's Guidance too :) Started from 青春对话 - a book that Daisaku Ikeda was interview by SGI Japan youth on studies, life, character, relationship, faith and a lot of knowledge.
7. I started doing a few workout to trim my body :) I wanna be pretty and wear pretty dresses to boost my confidence!
8. I started to take care of my appearance very seriously. I went for make up classes to learn basic make up. I realised how important it is for 1st impreession :) Hope it works and it will help a little on my future career :)
9. I love vacations! I 'm going to plan for my next vacation starting from 21 years old. I'm a big girl I wanna do plannings on my own, if possible, try travelling alone. I realized how short life can be, I wanna see the world before my time's up. If I could, I would bring my parents around the world, before they couldn't barely walk.
10. Friends come and go. I realized how true my parents told me. People come and go. I'm quite socialable girl, at any stage I will meet different people. But those who I met before I will not forget them too :) I gradually accept the fact, and moved on to a new stage of life!
Good night people, have a pleasant year 2014 and days ahead!
I will be matured who are capable of taking care myself financially, academically, physically and mentally.
I'm back on Blogger! Yayy :)
Just wanna do updates on a few things
1. I just done with my form six, got CGPA 3.75, and now waiting for the posting of local university, or maybe going for private one. Now I'm working as a temporary teacher in Hin Hua primary until August 19, because I wanna try it out for my mother and ex bf. I found out I wasn't passionate about being a teacher. I lost patience sometimes very easily because I couldn't understand why somethings is easy to understand but I dun get why they couldnt. HAHA It's me. And kids nowadays, their attitude really sucks, because they were too pampered by their parents. In the future, I would be a lecturer instead of primary or secondary teacher.
2. I broke up with my first love :) We have been together for 8 months. In the 8 months there was happy stuff, and sad stuff. I have learnt a lot of stuff. We were apart after we graduated from STPM, I made the effort for us to meet up to keep affections and updates maybe a few times a month but unfortunately he couldn't commit to it. It just doesn't work out the way we wanted. Gradually, he lost affections of me and would gave up on our relationship. We were on and off. I was in loved him very much when we were still couple, but I had to give up on him. I can't love him anymore when he didn't feel the same way as I do. Love makes someone go irrational. I'll let him go, he will be as free as a bird flying in the sky! I can't be his 绊脚石 anyway :D I'll free myself too, stop being so frustrated and lost concentration on things I do. I could do whatever thing I like. Let time fade us, if we are not meant to be together. Let time make us, if we are meant to be. I'm still in love with him, but now all I left was just friends love :) So thank you, and I love you.
3. My grandmother passed away this year. My grandmother passed away due to old and infections, on 28 of February. I remember that day I received the call from the hospital through mum's phone ( cause mum didn't bring her phone out, I was at home) after that I start calling everybody to rush to hospital to sent granny off but unfortunately nobody made it. I accepted her death and was ready for that long ago, she was suffering because I know a strong lady wouldn't want anybody to clean her shit, take care of her, she felt so pain inside her heart and gave up. I didnt cry, I know deep inside she would be in my heart and memories, forever. Thank you granny for taking care of me and my brother, when my mum had to work. I remember her dishes was rather awful ( I was pretty choosy on food ) but I remembered I did thanked her for her effort every time she cook for me. She used to take opportunities and cook whenever I'm at home, although she barely could walk. She fell down 3 times and broke her two legs one at each time. She was a strong lady, but very stubborn. I love you my dear grandmother. Miss you always. Miss you, I will send you prayers everyday when I do my Gongyo and Daimoku. Dear grandma, don't worry, I will graduate from my degree, get a high pay job, take over debts and any other expenses of family, take care of my parents, and be married to a good husband that I could share with him all your cool stories :)
4. Sadly, my aunty passed away this year too. She was my grandmother's second daughter, the third among siblings. She passed away on 26 of July, due to pancreatic cancer. She was suffering since my grandmother passed away. I saw her tummy bloated, then she cried for pain, after that her skin turned yellow due to kidney failure, and then she became so thin look very much alike to my grandmother at that time, then she couldn't even breathe, grasping for air every last second of her life, and at her last breathe, she grasped for the last time very hard, very loud, and she was gone. I remembered the way she laughed, she laughed so loud even the neighbours told me she was noisy. I laughed every time after she scold vulgar words every time she talked to my parents. She was so good on buying TOTO MAGNUM 4D and whatever sorts number, even our family gave her name " EMPAT EKOR". She cooked for me everytime I went to visit her. I remember when my grandma was sick, she cycled to our house from hers ( approximately half an hour distance ) just to clean up my house, mop my house floor, cook for my grandma, took care of my grandma, and even fold our clothing when all four of us weren't at home. I felt very grateful, she was there for my grandma when all four of us didn't. I felt very grateful, she cooked yummy 福建面 and more dishes for us and now all left was just memories. She was a better cook than my grandmother. She invited us for free dinner at nice restaurant when her 寿龟庙 held events. She laughed and made us laughed too. Dear aunt, I will always remember you. Love you alot, your laughters will be inside my heart, forever :)
5. I'm so determined to study Actuarial Science because of the good pay, high demand, good reputations of the job. It may be very stressful and very difficult to be an actuary but I believe I will put hard work to achieve my dreams and the future I want to have. Initially I applied for Chemical Engineering at a few local Universities, but I have changed my mind. I applied for UM for actuarial science course but too bad I didn't get any interview so I knew I wasn't shortlisted. Now, I hope I could get into UKM, but too bad I have overlooked it when I was applying for schools. If I do appellations it would take 3 weeks for me to get into the course and school I wanted, it was so risky because the government may not even consider my appellations. I have an alternative decision - Sunway intake in August, 3 years MYR 65000 but I have to repay PTPTN once I'm done with my degree, OR UTAR intake in October, 3 years MYR 36000. I don't mind the burden, but my parents and a lot of leaders really encouraged me to get a place in local University. Hopefully miracle could happen. Hopefully my prayers to Gohonzon will be answered.
6. I started chanting very seriously recently. Aimed on my target and fire. Have strong faith on Gohonzon. I started reading Sensei's Guidance too :) Started from 青春对话 - a book that Daisaku Ikeda was interview by SGI Japan youth on studies, life, character, relationship, faith and a lot of knowledge.
7. I started doing a few workout to trim my body :) I wanna be pretty and wear pretty dresses to boost my confidence!
8. I started to take care of my appearance very seriously. I went for make up classes to learn basic make up. I realised how important it is for 1st impreession :) Hope it works and it will help a little on my future career :)
9. I love vacations! I 'm going to plan for my next vacation starting from 21 years old. I'm a big girl I wanna do plannings on my own, if possible, try travelling alone. I realized how short life can be, I wanna see the world before my time's up. If I could, I would bring my parents around the world, before they couldn't barely walk.
10. Friends come and go. I realized how true my parents told me. People come and go. I'm quite socialable girl, at any stage I will meet different people. But those who I met before I will not forget them too :) I gradually accept the fact, and moved on to a new stage of life!
Good night people, have a pleasant year 2014 and days ahead!
I will be matured who are capable of taking care myself financially, academically, physically and mentally.
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