I remember that day.... it was so unforgetable.... that day i was so dam sad.. thinking of many problems happened to me in school... was so frustfrated becoz i cant share it with anyone.... my mum was asleep.... if i share v her... she sure would tell d whole family and keep scolding me not to think so much..... i usually share my feelings to my best mei mei... but then... she betrayed me few days ago..... i was so dam sad.... usually i will find her when i having any problems... but now... i learn not to trust her anymore.... i feel so sad.... that time feeling like wanna cry.... why secrets that she promised me not to say , then told so loud in class to others ??? it's like betraying people......... T_T .. Another thing was.... i kena rejected... it was d 1st time i met this situation.... i was so scare that he wont talk to me le.... i was so scare and afraid that he says no after PMR.... coz i heard that... he's gonna to tell me clearly after PMR .... i am so scare that time... i think a lot that time..... i kept thinking bout what is he gonna say sumthing to me??? i know he will say sumthing hurt to me.... i scare i couldnt react .... i am scare..... so scare.....
i wanna find ppl and tell my afraidness to the person... but then... none is suitable.... i really dun know wat to do when his best fren told me that.... i know his best fren dun wan me to be hurt so he told me earlier... but ... i think either he told me or u told me... the feelings are the same... its' a heart broking thing.... i was so worried..... how... and wat can i do???? how can i face him d next day?? i know he know le...i scare he knows that i like him ... maybe these are normal girl's fear to boys ba.....i always been thinking of "mayb" and "if" or "wad if" conditions..... so worried....
that was thursday night ... erm should say midnight... then the next day i'm taking Sejarah exam but i couldnt study ... i kept thinking about him... and wad his' fren said.... then .. suddenly a friend of mine talked to me... i was shocked because he never find me when he's online or in school ... we never confronted and talk like a friend.... mayb he always surrounded by boys and he dun wan rumors around about him and a girl.... but then for me .... my friends keep saying that i like him or he like me...== i swt.... he's a cool guy... many girls liked him becoz he is tall and quite handsome ... { but u really cant stand with his altitude } i feel quite happy that he still remembered me as a friend... last year i was in d same class wif him ... although he just sit behind me... we seldom talk friendly and juz talk bout homeworks... he asked me and i asked him.... but then... i feel thankful becoz of him i feel happy again... we chated a lot... i share many things wif him but he didn share with me... i thk he juz trust a person only and i cant gain his trust... mayb he dont really noe me gua... i told him about the things i feel depressed and he also giv me some advices.... i really feel that he is a mature man and a good guy.... the girl who he likes will be very happy and in happiness till forever... About the conversation we talk is a secret... i cant tell to protect him haha... =) i told him about everything.. coz i trust him ... i know he is a man that i can trust..... i hope he wont tell out my secrets and he also can protect me from unnecessaries things happen ..... that night was like i seen an angle helping me out and not making me cry alone.... i feel so happy... without him... that night was a nightmare.... i feel thankful god arrange a friend to me to help me out..... i feel sorry for him wad i done before..
i hope he could see my blog and he'll see this.... my words to him ...
" Hey, i am sorry for wad i done last time.... i hope u will forgive me.... but still ... i hope your friendship will be recover again.. i hope u will be happy..... please smile from your heart... i like your smile ... i am sure the smile from the bottom of ur heart will make u more lengzai haha=) i hope u will be happy ... really.... i also really hope that i can gain your trust..... you can share with me no matter happy sad or both..... thank you for that day u help me and let me be happy and realise something...... thank you..... =^.^= !! "
from that day ... i think deeply..... i realise ... just realise.... To Be happy , brave and strong in faith to overcome difficulties.... to accept every failure and try my best in d future ~ so relax all i i really had realised.... be happy and strong in faith to overcome difficulties.... accept every failure and try ur best in d future ~ so relax all ~~ I wont cry ever again !! hah-hah-hah-hah !!!
i wanna find ppl and tell my afraidness to the person... but then... none is suitable.... i really dun know wat to do when his best fren told me that.... i know his best fren dun wan me to be hurt so he told me earlier... but ... i think either he told me or u told me... the feelings are the same... its' a heart broking thing.... i was so worried..... how... and wat can i do???? how can i face him d next day?? i know he know le...i scare he knows that i like him ... maybe these are normal girl's fear to boys ba.....i always been thinking of "mayb" and "if" or "wad if" conditions..... so worried....
that was thursday night ... erm should say midnight... then the next day i'm taking Sejarah exam but i couldnt study ... i kept thinking about him... and wad his' fren said.... then .. suddenly a friend of mine talked to me... i was shocked because he never find me when he's online or in school ... we never confronted and talk like a friend.... mayb he always surrounded by boys and he dun wan rumors around about him and a girl.... but then for me .... my friends keep saying that i like him or he like me...== i swt.... he's a cool guy... many girls liked him becoz he is tall and quite handsome ... { but u really cant stand with his altitude } i feel quite happy that he still remembered me as a friend... last year i was in d same class wif him ... although he just sit behind me... we seldom talk friendly and juz talk bout homeworks... he asked me and i asked him.... but then... i feel thankful becoz of him i feel happy again... we chated a lot... i share many things wif him but he didn share with me... i thk he juz trust a person only and i cant gain his trust... mayb he dont really noe me gua... i told him about the things i feel depressed and he also giv me some advices.... i really feel that he is a mature man and a good guy.... the girl who he likes will be very happy and in happiness till forever... About the conversation we talk is a secret... i cant tell to protect him haha... =) i told him about everything.. coz i trust him ... i know he is a man that i can trust..... i hope he wont tell out my secrets and he also can protect me from unnecessaries things happen ..... that night was like i seen an angle helping me out and not making me cry alone.... i feel so happy... without him... that night was a nightmare.... i feel thankful god arrange a friend to me to help me out..... i feel sorry for him wad i done before..
i hope he could see my blog and he'll see this.... my words to him ...
" Hey, i am sorry for wad i done last time.... i hope u will forgive me.... but still ... i hope your friendship will be recover again.. i hope u will be happy..... please smile from your heart... i like your smile ... i am sure the smile from the bottom of ur heart will make u more lengzai haha=) i hope u will be happy ... really.... i also really hope that i can gain your trust..... you can share with me no matter happy sad or both..... thank you for that day u help me and let me be happy and realise something...... thank you..... =^.^= !! "
from that day ... i think deeply..... i realise ... just realise.... To Be happy , brave and strong in faith to overcome difficulties.... to accept every failure and try my best in d future ~ so relax all i i really had realised.... be happy and strong in faith to overcome difficulties.... accept every failure and try ur best in d future ~ so relax all ~~ I wont cry ever again !! hah-hah-hah-hah !!!
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