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有些话好想说..但说不出口了..
有些感情好想表达出来.. 就是不能..
可能是心理,也可能想了太多...
就算被人误会了.. 也不太想再去理会.. 就算了吧..
因为就算解释了.. 也不能够改变什么..
就是因为这样.. 让我好辛苦..
可是别人却没办法理解.. 自己也没办法理解别人..
就这样, 感情变淡了....
几个月的相处都是假的..
渐渐的, 那条隔离的线又重画了.. 越来越厚.. 怎么努力也擦不掉..
感觉好难过..
有些人，因为害怕而不敢表达自己.. 我承认.. 我也是..
因为怕得罪人而一而再再而三的把自己推向没人的空间里..
只能在真正的朋友面前变回自己..
我真的好会掩饰真正的自己..
因为习惯了..
开心？快乐？假的啦..
现在,我爱哭了..
虽然知道哭也没用,但就是把情绪发泄出来..
haha.. 真白痴..
人生好短, 为什么我会为了这些而哭呢？
因为我在乎啊..
写着写着，我又哭了.. 什么时候才能停止？

现在已2点，早上起程去Hatyai 与 Penang..
去放松一下吧..
希望回来后.. 自己一定会勇敢的克服困难.. 开朗些..

这次决定去旅行前，前后也思考了不少..
如果放弃旅行，父母会不会失望？
当我知道他们特地为我安排的东西, 让我不忍心去对他们说“我不去了”..
上次已让他们失望了2次.. Singapore & Melaka.. 好难..
如果放弃练习，他们会怎么想？
自己应该负责的东西，就这样让别人做..
自己应该帮忙做的东西, 就让他一个人做..
我的犹豫不决, 让好多人辛苦了.. 对不起..

去旅行, 好好的思考吧...
回来以后... 努力去实现我们共同的目标..
自己要面对一切困难... 自己解决.. 加油..=)


琳慧..

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再见过去

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