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After the Big Day

After the Grand FInals National COmpetition..
I rest at home for a day..
in my mind are all band stuff..
I still cant erase and concentrate in my studies as band stuff are fully occupied..
i keep thinking about wad i've done yesterday.. and for a year..
Think about wad Yee Yun told me yesterday..
It's true.. i havent grown up..
i'm a straight thinker.. i'm immatured..
i dun wanna find any excuses for these..
i totally agree..
I cant think much or deep bout anything..
i just do wad i wanted to do and never think further about cause and effect..
I realise wad i've done wrong..
IMMATURED.. hahaa



KHSB..

I'm sorry i screwed up the whole show..
Although it had already pass..
I still feel so bad bout it..
I feel so bad once i heard that i made a terrible mistake after the performance from one senior..
I tried my best to conduct with my sick hands in the whole performance..
and yet.. 70.40.. rank 8 is what we got..
i dun feel sad about the scores we KHSB obtain..
i feel sad.. how could i make a mistake like that in our important performances or competition??
OMG.. Sorry..

I feel..
for a year as a conducter..
I feel i did nothing..
I cant remember wad i've done in this year..
all i did.. was conducting and practice myself as CM..
Combine music part by part.. polish songs.. teaching my small conducter..
following the coach's instrution..
in the end..
the coach told me that **********..
which makes me feel that i'm so useless...
the result came out quite satisfied..
but wad i feel is so different..
Sorry all my Bandmates..
i cant be a suitable one..

But still,
I am very appreciate of you all's cooperation..
Thank you all..
My form 4 band life becomes so meaningful..
Sorry for all the mistakes i have made..
Please forgive me.

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