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好想回到7岁, 每一天都是笑着度过。

最讨厌别人一点小事就哭了,所以自己也不会哭。

常常说别人是小孩子。爱哭包。

超级讨厌那些一直哭哭哭不停的小孩子,

吵死人。


现在,我已经17岁了。

发现长得越大,烦恼越多,心情一直不稳定,变得很爱哭。

现在竟然喜欢用哭的方式去发泄自己的情绪。

我是不是爱哭包呢?

真差劲。

一点小事就哭了。






就像今天早上,
不知道为什么,
也不知道发生什么事情,
好像突然间好累,
不想讲话,不想理人,不想笑,不想动,不开心,心好像已经死了。
今天我就只想用功课来掩盖我的脾气。
(超级对不起美倩,晓晴的)

直到下午,我妈忘记带我的球鞋,我骂了他一顿。
多么小的一件事情,我却向我伟大的妈妈发起脾气来。
到补习中心,我哭了。
觉得很惭愧。
我怎么可以向那个为我一直奔波的妈妈发脾气啊?
就算心情怎么不好,也不可以用妈妈来发泄自己的脾气。
什么女儿来的。=.=
补习便向妈妈道歉了。
他却不过问,
只问我,
你今天发生什么事情了啊?是不是很累?关心的话语。
我便一五一十地告诉他了。

下午练球,我的心情也好很多。
发现到打球也是一种能让我开心的方法。
很自在。很开心。






越长大,
烦恼越多,
想得更多,
一直胡思乱想,
心情很不稳定,
变得不常笑,
对别人开始不耐烦,
对自己开始很不满,
就用哭来发泄自己的脾气。

哭了很久才能稳定下来我的脾气。

这么大了,一直哭个不停,觉得自己好没用。

想笑都难。










笑吧。




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