Well, I guessed you moved on quite well, with your new girl and a bunch of new friends. I felt so happy for you. It's been a few months, which I lost track of it already to forgive myself and forget things happened between us. I've seen you are quite happy with a new stage of life, so do I. Great :)
Then I should move on too!
I believe the next guy in my life will be coming in just few years, and from my past relationship experience, I would cherish the next relationship better. I understand very well that relationships are not last forever, but it's just an opportunity for a couple to trial and error. If everything goes well, or I should say, if both sides could do well for each other on their part, the relationship would certainly last till marriage. Otherwise, the relationship will also breaks off if things do not go well, and more lesson to be learnt and experiences to be accumulated. I guess relationship is just a part of life, a part of growth. I used to think off him being a future husband, a soul-mate that I will not open my heart to somebody else again, but now.. it seemed that I have to carry the broken pieces of my heart and put it back together myself. I'm independent again. Who else will give me his heart and bring me happiness? Absolute happiness does not include relationship and marriage, but human revolution. I guessed I made my human revolution. Things I thought it should be is not longer become it will be.
I'm matured, and my heart filled with joy and hope to move on in order to seek for my absolute happiness and my right partner in faith and life.
Sensei said, relationship is not two person looked into each other's eyes, but two person working towards a same direction side by side, hand in hand. I would continue to live on with my life, waiting for this person. I will be strong, be cheerful, and be happy on my own. Don't you worry. I wished that you will be happy, I send my prayers to you for being all well, and of course, I will chant for your happiness. I'm grateful that you made me grow. Although I still hate myself so much for giving in everything, in the end it was still a great experience. If I never had suffered, I will never know what is happiness.
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